Is it just me who thinks about her lost love every day still 14 years into marriage with another man?

My lost love was more than a crush to me, but friendship was all he wanted, even though we spent a lot of time together in our group of friends, many of whom saw the spark between us. When I met my husband, we stayed within that friend group while we courted, but soon after we got married, we decided together to switch churches. I stayed in touch with my female friends from the group, but didn’t think it would be wise to continue a friendship with my lost love and his twin brother. Why do I think about them every day?